Of time, college and other unimportant stuff.

Hello there. Nice to see you again after an eon. It's crazy how fast time flies! It's so easy to lose track of time. High school and SPM both ended in just the blink of an eye and we are now only a mere three days away from the end of the year! Isn't it scary?

Anyway, as all of you well know, I have been bumming around a lot. I am starting to get already bored of my daily routine (which includes eating, pooping, sleeping, and watching TV) and since my brain has been hibernating, I am starting to worry I might fall into the deep abyss of unintelligence.

I seriously need a little excitement to break the monotony of my daily existence. It seems to me that the only thing standing in between myself and the good life is my inability to drive. Woe is me.

On a different note, since time is something that I have in abundance lately, I've been doing a lot of thinking (in a silly way that does not require the brain to work very much and not in the intelligent way). I've been thinking about college and how I actually feel about the change that is going to come.

These few days leading to the start of college- the start of a new phase of my life- is rather bittersweet. (More bitter than sweet, unfortunately.)

On one hand, I cannot wait for the holidays to end because not only am I getting stupid, I am also getting plump, much to my disdain.

On the other hand, though, I feel unprepared to leave all that I know so well behind. I am terrified to step out of my comfort zone. I feel intimidated by the people that I have yet to know but am bound to meet.

I am not very fond of changes, and this is just too huge a change for me. I can't even be excited to begin this entirely new and thoroughly different part of life because of the fear that I feel so frequently of late. The nature of the future, i.e., unpredictable and unknown, is so formidable.

What if people don't like me? What if I'd have to spend the whole year completely and utterly alone? What if I can't keep up with the assignments or the syllabus? What if I don't do well? What if I can't get into Uni? What if I died?

I'm starting to get a bit morbid, aren't I? I guess it's time for this topic to magically change into another. Did you know that Star World now has a channel in HD? :D

Okay see you soon goodbye.